More About Life in Saint Denis

Hello Della,

Some more rambling observations from St Denis.

Sometimes when I am on the terrace in the evenings I look up and there are the 3 rabbits sitting on the lawn again, and we sit there quietly looking at each other for a long while. I am not sure what exactly they are thinking but my thoughts, depending how close we are to 7 PM, veer between Brer Rabbit and Lapin a La Cocotte. Then as dusk starts hiding the chestnut trees and the first bats swoop around, the rabbits retire to their blackberry patch for the night and I go inside, leaving the bats to dine on the bugs that were snacking on me.

With my children and my visitors all gone back to the USA  my life has moved closer to the intended routine. A bicycle ride three days a week to keep the heart functional, up along the least hilly stretch I can find along the road to my friend Joseph’s farm. The roads are narrow and there was one particular corner where drivers seemed to be coming around more in the middle of the road than on their side. After a couple of trips I figured out that on the terrace of a summer home, just before the corner from Joseph’s house, an evidently impoverished Dutch lady and her daughter were attempting to stay warm by lying in the sun naked. Alas the alabaster Hollandaise have gone home and we are all back on our own side of the road.

A few weeks ago as I rolled down the hill before the bridge and the old mill I would see a young couple working on, and clearly living in, an old van set up in the front garden of a house that was closed up for the season. Being winded and needing an excuse to stop on the way back up the hill, and being curious I went in and said a big Bonjour. The kids looked a bit nervous so I said Hello and they started speaking Scottish, or maybe English with a very strong accent. They had finished school and were driving around Europe for a year. So my question, after offering them showers, phone calls home etc.  was why overhaul the van in rural Saint Denis in the south of France. Their answer, their first stop after purchasing the van in Scotland was Saint Denis to see some friends staying there for the summer. By the time they reached Saint Denis they realised the true condition of the van and started overhauling it. Now with weeks gone by and their friends returned home they were finishing up and leaving in a couple of days.

So next spin down the hill the gates were closed, the garden tidy and the kids were on the road. You would wish them well, bon voyage, true love, a wedding, children and lots of warm memories for the long rainy Scottish nights when the sun sets at 4 PM and kids do not want to go to bed or to sleep. I did recommend they consider immigration to Australia, one does what one can.

In fact most of the summer visitors and tourists are now gone and we have the roads and countryside pretty much back to ourselves with the sun still shining and the weather still warm. But I do miss walking along the little rural paths that the farm workers used to get to the fields in years gone by, and meeting tourists who stop speaking Dutch, German or English to respond to my ringing Bonjour with their Bonjour in return. Thus enabling them to continue on with their constitutional enjoying a warm feeling of experiencing  la France profonde, never suspecting my Irish origins.

A few days ago I was taking a stroll down one of these paths listening to a podcast from an Australian university, two teams were debating the question can capitalism have a soul. So apropos of who knows what one of the debaters threw in a vignette from the 1960s when a young liberated Australian university student was bringing her new baby to school and breast feeding it in class. The professor newly arrived from England, and with a military bearing and moustache said nothing the first two times but on the third occasion said young lady do you know that breast feeding is a form of masturbation. There was a horrified silence, the young lady blushed deeply and after a pause said, no I didn’t but you do it your way and I’ll do it mine. So I was bent over laughing out loud when a couple from my village came around a bend, said Bonjour and were gone before I could come up with anything plausible. Thus do you earn a reputation in a small village.

However it will take time and effort to surpass the older gentleman up the road. I am told he is a Russian who has lived in the village for many many years. About 40 years ago he first became of note for wearing a luxurious full length fur coat in the winter time. But he moved from note to lore when he was observed early on a cold New Years morning at the edge of the small lake that provides the local drinking water, shedding his fur coat to reveal a naked Russian who plunged into the water for a ritual swim. He evidently repeated it for a sufficient number of years that  people stopped waking up early on New Years day to watch, so no one knows if and when he stopped.

A few weeks ago I was returning from my bicycle ride, coming down the narrow road to my house when I met my next door neighbour’s sister, her car parked in the middle of the path gathering blackberries from the drywalls enclosing the fields. Since I had to get off the bike to pass I offered to help with the blackberry gathering and after a while and some scratches she told me she had just told her brother that I was invited for lunch at her home the next Saturday. I thanked her and made my way home. The next day, Friday her brother Jean Noel told me about the invitation and I asked what we were having for lunch so I could bring a few bottles of wine. He told me that the main course was 300 snails. So I asked what wine went with snails and he told me red. Who knew.

On Saturday I showed up about 1230 with my wine and there were about a dozen people present, some of whom I had met before when eating on Jean Noel’s terrace. We started in with snacks and the wines that go with snacks. Then a big wok like pan was put on the table with I would guess at least 300 snails and a sauce that added a certain je ne sais quoi. We worked our way through that with baguettes and red wine. Then they lit the barbecue and proceed to grill portions of a wild pig someone had shot just recently. Wild pig also goes with red wine. Next of course came cheese, desert including a blackberry pie that I had contributed to, coffee and a little glass of Armagnac digestive. All this took place on the terrace outside and about 5 PM Jean Noel’s niece asked her Dad if she should dance for us, and he said sure and everybody else cheered.

This is a child about 10 years old wearing what I think we used to call pedal pushers, runners on her feet and a simple top and with her hair pulled back in a pony tail. So blasé John thought this will at least bring the day to an end before I fall asleep here in my chair. The kid went inside to pick out some music and gave it to her cousin to put on the stereo, we all turned our chairs to the front and she stood still waiting for the music. Then when the music started, she stood totally erect, put her right arm in the air, turned her hand over her head, put her left hand behind her back parallel to her waist, turned her head slowly to look over our heads and with a look of pride and a poise dating from hundred of years started to dance a flamenco. After about 5 minutes her audience began to shout encouragement asking for more fire, more blood and she danced with a passion a 10 year old couldn’t possibly have  known.

When she was finished I was completely flabbergasted about what, if you are lucky, you can tumble into in a small French village on a sunny afternoon after some food and wine. I thanked the young girl and complimented her father, asking him how long she had studied dance. He told me only a few months. But I persisted asking how could she have that look, that poise and he told me that everyone present, with the exception of two of the ladies, were originally from Andalusia in Spain and what I saw was a natural part of their heritage. Remember over 300,00 Spanish refugees, many Catalan escaped to France during the Franco dictatorship.

It was getting on for 6 PM and I started making my excuses again and  they cleaned the table and brought out the aperitifs. The ladies said they were going to make two simple omelettes with locally picked mushrooms, one drier for those that preferred that and the other baveuse, such an evocative word, for those that preferred runny. They also lit the barbecue again and started grilling portions of a deer that a boyfriend of one of the girls had recently hunted and a 3 litre bottle of wine, red, appeared on the table. As a guest I got one of the fresh deer kidneys soaked in vinegar and placed on the barbecue for not a long time. When we reached the coffee for the second time one of the guests came out of he house playing a local set of bagpipes, it actually is a small sheep turned inside out with the legs stoppered with wooden plugs and a drone and chanter stuck in one end, or the other.

At 1130 I again started to say thanks and tried to go home and then it was announced we were going to a larger village to hear some live music and have a last beer. So I got home at 1 AM, turned around a few times and finally laid down and thus ended another weekend in a quiet rural French village.

So now here it is another weekend and time to end this and take a walk to my friend Joseph’s and if I time it right on the return the sun will be going down and shining west to east along the Pyrenees, which roll back into the distance from low to high like broken waves.  I like to walk along that road when as winter comes on the snow starts creeping down the mountains and the setting sun reflects off it like snow on fire.

Last note. I got to the farm yesterday and Jeannot , Joseph’s brother in law was sitting outside on a bench in the shade. Jeannot was taken by the fact that I had walked to his place from the village, about a 30 minute effort and told me that at 82 he does not walk anywhere near as much as he used to. Jeannot is a widower with a ribald sense of humour, and he and Joseph live together in their old farm house.  Joseph and their dog joined us at the bench. Joseph and Jeannot are about the same age, and if like today neither one has their hearing aids installed, and they both have very pronounced rural accents, the conversation gets loud and frequently confused.  I asked Jeannot how long their neighbors the Dutch ladies had been gone and he told me three days.  I told him he could still walk a fair distance if he knew that, or was he sneaking across the fields, which got Joseph laughing. Joseph only has one leg, he lost the other years ago in an accident with a farm machine,  so cannot cover much distance at all. Actually Joseph has 3 legs, his good one, the prosthesis he was wearing, and his spare prothesis which he had washed and was drying in the sun outside the front door. Jeannot using lots of colourful patois told me that even at his age, if he could not walk far his eyes were still working, for example he could see that the widow Hugette was back home up the hill because her laundry was outside.  So I complimented him on his continuing youth as evidenced by his interest in the widow’s underwear and there was a lot more patois and three old guys laughing on a bench with a dog with its head on one side looking at us.

On the way home I walked down the lane past the Russian gentleman’s home and he was in his vegetable garden leaning heavily on his walking stick modernising the system everyone uses here to try to scare off the birds. You cut plastic bottles in half and put them inverted on a stick and when the wind blows they rattle and spin around.  Today he was installing a new system with string and shiny CDs which were spinning in the breeze. I wondered if the CDs were of Russian choral music, Gretchaninov for the birds of Saint Denis .

I hope this finds you well, and all things considered, in good spirits.


I will call you on Sunday

Your friend,

John

Hello Again

 Dear Jim, Ann,


First Jim, what is the news on the tender process for your contract award. Having travelled around Melbourne with you that very enjoyable day I am sure no one has any complaints and your company will win the award. So please bring me up to date.

As for Ann I am sure like all good schoolteachers she working much too hard if not obsessively, and like myself in my own working days I am sure it has at least something to do with proving to “them”, (imposter syndrome)  that we are worth our salary and position if not our very existence. As we used to say, or what I used to tell Americans  was an Irish saying, you are a long time dead. So if the person who never learned to follow his own advice can say it – Ann please keep a little time for painting. All my friends love the one you gave me now hanging on my living room wall in Saint Denis.

Tell Keith to get the job settled, get some time in and come on up and make a trip around Europe and the US and even Canada and Ireland. The wine cellar is always full, more or less, and he has family in Boston and Washington that he really must meet and will be happy to provide him a bed.

Other more local news from St Denis.

I spent a couple of hours yesterday with my friends Claude and Violette Carlier. I don’t think you met them during your visit. I was sad to learn that Claude had recently had a small stroke which required a couple of weeks of hospitalisation. The good news is they seem to have dissolved the clot and he apparently suffered no long term damage. Mostly, take note, due to his having decided to go straight to the hospital when he noticed the symptoms.

But it is amusing or I try to find it so, that now no matter which friend I visit there are often large quantities of  medications in sight, or frequently they are filling as I now do,  their plastic pill holders with the next weeks supply of variously coloured and shaped tablets.

Naturally most of the conversation circulated around our ailments and those of our friends. A sort of puzzled and even surprised examination of and reporting on our new and inexperienced journey into increasing decrepitude, foreseen but somehow unexpected in the rapidity of it’s onset and domino knock on impact. Pending future challenges were examined briefly and with an blurred astigmatic focus by for example Violette describing other patients with similar maladies seen in the hospital, unable to walk or feed themselves. A situation observed but somehow kept peripheral to the reality of our own inevitable  journey.

Jessica continues to work enthusiastically at her new job which she still loves very much. Pat and Adrienne, with a little assistance from Dad,  are in the closing stages of buying a condo in Boston supposedly equi distant between MIT and Harvard. It is a real if vicarious pleasure to listen to them work their way way through getting a mortgage, having a bedroom for the first baby, fixing up the kitchen and changing the colours (Adrienne – big smile) in the bathroom.

And finally – I promise. Last night I had supper with Joseph and Jeannot two retired and now in their seventies, former farmers  in their very, very  old farm house with the food, vegetable soup, coustelous (spareribs) 2 ribs each,  prepared on the perpetual wood burning fire in the kitchen chimney, followed by cheese and an apple. I asked politely during the meal why some of the French put water in their wine. Joseph said the taste of wine is too strong and Jeannot after a pause said the taste of water is too plain. Is it possible these two old unsophisticated were messing with my widely travelled head.

Please say hello to my Auntie Madge and tell her I hope her cataract operation was a success and I expect to see her, having recognised me from afar, to come running to greet me with arms outspread and a cold bottle of chardonnay gripped in her teeth when I next arrive in Melbourne.

Be well, and if you are having a good day remember as Kurt Vonnegut’s uncle used to say on a sunny day drinking lemonade under a tree “this is probably as nice as it gets”

With love.

John

Shock & Horror and Banzai

Della,

Because of the time difference between Vancouver and St Denis I opened your recent picture of your head at breakfast. It really brought home just what you went through with the melanoma and how much pain you suffered and of course how very frightened you must have been. Congratulations again on fighting your way through it all and remember to be kind to yourself for having the courage it required to do it.

On a lighter subject, dogs which I know you like and apologies if I have already told all or some of this. At the end of the field which is supposedly my garden some folks have built a new house and then got a very large and very young dog, some kind of setter. Any time they open the door to their house the dog makes a run for the great outdoors which has rabbits, cats and who knows what else to be investigated. When they notice he is gone the kids, usually the daughter who is about 10 or 12 is sent out to track him down. When she spots him she takes off running towards him and he thinks this is great and runs towards her, passes her on one side or the other and goes off in a new direction with her in pursuit. This goes on for a while a lot like a Charlie Chaplain movie until she is pooped and he is bored and then he heads off on new adventures, sometimes coming up to see me. After we have said hello, usually him jumping all over me and nearly knocking me down I get a hold of him and walk him back down the field to his home.
About a week ago on a bright sunny day I was outside digging some dirt that nature had put in the wrong place and taking it and putting it around the house. At the same time I have a big bonfire of dead wood and windfall burning in front of the house, which requires watching in case I become the Irish man in the village who set fire to a neighbours chestnut trees. After a few hours I saw that one of the two seasonal winds that local people keep talking about, one from the Atlantic and one from N. Africa,  was bringing large rain filled clouds. So I poked up the bonfire and start shoveling out the last wheelbarrow of soil at double speed when I suddenly started feeling very short of breath, very much akin as I understood later to the shortness of breath that accompanied my heart attack two years ago, but yet not quite the same. So I was shoveling madly and trying to assess subtle variations in shortness of breath and the possible terminal stupidity of what I was doing, when I suddenly experienced what felt like a very heavy blow across my back. I stopped myself from falling over by leaning on the spade and thought shit, not really thought as not enough time elapsed to take in what was one of those first time experiences. Suddenly Banzai the dog as he is named, appeared this time in front and jumped on me again from that side, being exceedingly happy to be outdoors and to find a friend, even if it was now raining. And after I took it all in I was exceedingly happy to see him, a large and increasingly wet dog.

A couple of days later I was again outside working in the garden when a couple of friends stopped by unexpectedly. I put some bottles, glasses and nibbles on the table on the terrace and we sat and chatted for a while. Then about 7 PM I remembered I had promised to have a drink with some other friends in the village. My guests understood and I saw them off, ran around closing up the house and went outside, late but on the way, to again  be greeted warmly by Banzai. Shit again, I am late but if I leave him who knows where he will end up. But to walk him back down the field where the grass is now extremely tall will take forever. So I opened the back door to the car and tried pushing him in and he thinks this is a great new game and around and around the car we go. Finally by opening both back doors and getting on the opposite side of the car I enticed him in and closed the doors. But he was most upset and either wanted out or maybe to drive but he clearly now wanted to be in the drivers seat with me.

So we compromised by my opening the passenger window for him an showing him how much fun it is by shoving his head out the window and off we went to his home. There a very sad little boy became very happy said merci monsieur we have been looking everywhere for him – again. But now Banzai does not want to get out, he is sitting in the passenger seat waiting for the door to be closed, us to get underway and to stick his head out the window again. Finally the big sister came out and gave him unbridled heck, he jumped down, sat at her feet and she proceeded to give him an intense finger waving lecture. And I swear it was the first time I fully understood the expression hang dog. I lack the skill to properly describe him, he had his head down and to one side but his eyes were sort of looking up at her and he had this kind of kind of really sorrowful but also shit eating grin which conveyed “OK you got me and I am sorry but we both know that next time the door is open…”

Be well, and if you are having a good day remember as Kurt Vonnegut’s uncle used to say “this is probably as nice as it gets”

Your friend,

John